https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V_LCiQP94Lk
comment left by me on the above video.
i know how he feels - I wish I could tell people off like he does. Christians just say shit about God doing this and god doing this. When one person says anything like How do you know this is true? Where is the evidence? There is a real world with real answers. I sued to believe in all kinds of supernatural things and it hurt me, it poisoned my brain because I kept expecting magic to be real, that prayers would actually do something and that God would provide answers and guidance. I'm not an atheist because I'm depressed or angry at God or the world. I'm an atheist because in the deepest depressions I used to scream and cry out for god to show me some sign or send me something to help me- AND nothing came. So I had to find my own answers. I ish I could make some shit up like there's a magic fairy that can just suck out the demons in my brain but I can't. It's all fucked up chemicals and my own bad decisions that I have to take responsibilty for. Even now- I am still looking for something outside of myself to "save me" but there is nothing- maybe some medication and a therapist but no angels or gods or some guy dying on a cross or walking on water or healing the blind. If Jesus can heal blindness or cast out demons he could easily clear up my depression, he doesn't even have to show up- just do it- now... .... .... nope nothing. I have to work to feed myself- this got really personal but I don't care I need to write all this out somewhere.
