Keep going

Now I lay me on the bed
Words pour out of my head
I don't pray so don't even ask
Set my fingers on a task
To pry open the cockles of thought
Search for spoils of war I've fought
Braking locks to ancient chests
Not staring at naked breasts
Or playing marvelous game of death
More addictive than crack or meth
Not sleeping or listening to asleep
Or praying the Lord my soul to keep
We don't have a Lord we are free
This is Labor Day right so fuck me
I have to work and not drink beer
Or go on a trip to kill some deer
I'm not a redneck but I have lost tooth
Lincoln was killed by John Wilkes Boothe
I don't know where I'm going with this
This was going to be a hit but it's a miss
I was trying be serious and super deep
Now I'm just losing more empty sleep
I don't even dream of anything cool
Except watching girls in some pool
My mind wanders wants to come back
If I'm lucky I'll have deadly heart attack
That can't be healthy hoping for death
I know it's pathetic but that's all I have left
After a whole fucking year my heart BURNS
I am still waiting for that thing that turns
Me around, puts me back on my path
Art, music, film, writing, even fucking math
There's so much more to life for
So much more to learn
I'm not going anywhere
Unless they open a wormhole at CERN
And ask for volunteers to jump on in
Meet some aliens with balls on their chin
Keep going I got nothing else to say
Sometimes I'm so fucking gay
Gay as in retarded not fucking men
Not that there's anything wrong with that Ken.
Who is that I don't fucking care
This is still going my feet are bare
Now I'm out of anything good to share
Maybe I'll continue tomorrow it's a dare
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